Memory Fade

I felt your memory fade a bit,

And I hate myself for it.

If my sun shining again means I forget you,

I don’t want this storm to end.

For too long,

Every thought of you,

Crashed through floodgates,

And I could only drown.

And instead of learning to swim,

I headed for shore,

Far away from the seas,

Where floods could reach me no more.

I felt your memory fade a bit,

And I hate myself for it.

And when prayers ending in tears,

Turn to silent stares at God,

When compassion and grace,

Turn to anger and rage.

When I swear my vengeance,

Locked eyes on the devil's face,

When all I want is a sword in my hand,

And the tempter slain…

I am not such a fool as cannot see,

My heart is truly in chains.

And I hold no key,

But I know where to find it.

In the hands of my God,

With His son seated by Him.

So when I feel your memory fade,

I’ll unlock my heart to find grace.

The chains sink to the floor as I swim out from shore,

And these floods can drown me no more.